The "Committed" Mom?

I am blessed to be the mom of three wonderfully amazing children I call Brent, Lottie and Kenzie. But honestly, there are days when I am committed and days when I need to be committed! So here's where this little blog comes in...my refuge- my sanctuary...my opportunity to share with all who care, the joys of being a "Committed" Mom!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A Time to Give Thanks...a Time to Take Action

Today I am having a deep thought kind of day, in fact I just posted a bunch of the questions I was thinking about on Facebook. I thought I would continue here but in fact what I really feel I need to do is just say "Thank you".
Thank you to God for this life that I am leading and thank God for the people who are in my life.  I praise Him that I woke up with breath in my body and that I am in good health.  I praise Him that there are people in my life who experiencing a deep sorrow and tragedy, but that I cling to the fact that HE WILL see them through this time and that HE WILL uphold them and He will protect them, if they seek Him they will find Him and in that I rejoice.  I thank Him that I am able to stay at home with my two kids and take care of two others and that financially our needs are in abundance.  I thank Him for the lean times we just went through a few months back, because it developed in me a new heart, to view life through different lenses of appreciation.  I thank God for the land in between- the place that I am constantly living....I am not where I was and I am not yet perfected in where I want to be...but this land in between is serving a new purpose.  I am thankful for change and I am thankful for the people who hate it.  I am thankful that there are messy people out there who don't agree with me or like what I have to say.  I am messy and I don't necessarily like what they have to say either- but I thank God that He created us all different in order to grow us, change us, challenge us, sharpen us- make us better!  I thank God for those pain in the butt people who I encounter and want to yell at....because it shows me where my heart is and where it needs to be.  I thank God for the fact that He is working in the lives of my children and when they pray at night before bed I am almost moved to tears because of the beauty of their love for God.  I am thankful that there are people out there who want to make changes and are motivated to make changes, when many of us become complacent.  I am thankful for the pain and sorrow in my own life, that has molded me and shaped me to be who I am.  I am thankful that God has always been faithful to me and that I see His faithfulness in all areas of my life.  I am thankful that I am aware of my unthankfulness- I am aware that I make choices and decisions that are not in my best interest or the best interest of others but I know that God is a God of second chances and forgiveness.  I am thankful that if I am truly sorry and confess my sins to Him- that He no longer remembers....even when I can't forget. I am thankful that He is a good of mercy and grace and these are two things that I am not good with.    I am thankful for the friends that I have lost over the years, because in my loss I have learned what it means to be a friend.  I am thankful for the heartache of not being able to conceive a child with my husband yet, because He has filled our home with the love of two amazing children who were born in my heart!  I am thankful that I trust His plan for my life, even when I don't know what it is.  I am thankful that He doesn't strike me down with a lightening bolt when I rage against Him, or when I tell Him how unfair He is.  I am thankful that my Dad was spared from Cancer and death....because this means He still has an opportunity to meet this amazing God that I know and that he has an opportunity to learn about His love for him!  I am thankful that I hear God and that I recognize His voice- even if I don't always acknowledge or listen to Him- I can hear it and I know He knows me personally.  I am thankful for the deep love He has for each of us, as ugly as we get, as messy as we make our lives, no matter how angry we are at Him or what we feel He has done wrong or what He has not done for us...He loves...He loves and He loves.
And tonight I just spent 20 minutes typing about the thankfulness of my heart, because tonight I am overwhelmed with His love and am so awestruck at the moment- thinking about how God views this crazy world we live in (see Facebook Wonderings)and how much He really loves ALL OF US- RED, YELLOW, BLACK, WHITE, MEN, WOMEN, CHILDREN, TEENS, OLD, YOUNG and INBETWEEN,  STRAIGHT, GAY, TRANSGENDER, MURDER, THIEF, LIAR, ADULTER, BLASPHEMER, GLUTTONER,SELF-RIGHTEOUS, ARROGANT, LAZY, SELFISH, PEDOPHILES, ABUSERS, DRUNKARDS, ADDICTS, IDOLATERS, ATHEIST, AGNOSTIC, WICCANS, WARLOCKS, BAPTIST, MUSLIMS, CATHOLICS (EVERY MAN MADE RELIGION ON THIS EARTH) REPUBLICANS, DEMOCRATS, OR ANY PARTY FOR THAT MATTER....He loves us, He loves us, He loves us.  He loves us and He created us with a purpose- His purpose, for His plan, for His joy! He delights in us-not in our sin- but in us His beloved creation.  And the world continues to spin and our lives move on, (or some don't...) and I find myself asking a lot of wondering questions...I wonder when we will see it? I wonder when we will answer the call for our lives? I wonder if the people will really hear and understand?  I wonder what I can do, what I should be doing and how I can do it better? But most importantly I wonder...HOW DO I BEGIN???